Sunday, December 28, 2008

Emotion fools ?

wats the best things we have... our relationships!
at times i completely fail to understand what it takes to have a perfect relation?
understanding, love, support...blah blah blah....
where do we draw a line...

its strange, its strong, its private, its emotion!

at times there is no answer as to why we go so extreme... why can't it jus be the way it started?
there are pros and cons in all... a little do i understand about where really we wrong or which element is lacking?

be it a father - son relation, a mother - daughter in law relation, or a lovers relation, whats the most common factor? FEELINGS...

theres a big WHY? is my head... is'nt there a mid way? a way where things have a solution? does it really has to get so bad?

WHY do children abandon their parents?
WHY do lovers break up?
WHATS with this WHY?

are things really so complicated? why do we call ourselves so intelligent if we cant handle relation?

REALTIONs are really simple, it all needs is nourishment!

to be continued...

Saturday, December 20, 2008

queer emotions...

im some one who is constantly on the search to find a clue of what i really need and what i really want...perhaps what i really wish... i need some time for stuffs to get registered in my mind...
i forget a lot of irrelevant things to me very quickly...
eheh...amnesia we call it... but to make myself feel better i say im a "little forgetful"
im on a continuous roller coaster of thoughts...

at times they mean nothing to me, no relevance to me, my imagination can cross miles in fraction of a second,,, a whole world of events....

i always walk with my eyes glued at the sky...bump in to alot of thing becoz of that...fractured my foot too...but may be i jus keep creating an invisible design of HAPPINESS on it...
WOW!!!
its all mine :P

my thoughts and emotion are so abreast with each other that which one overtakes whom is a million dollar question ...

suddenly from makin a canvas i see down on the earth...where my feet touches ...

i then feel the pinch of reality... but hey i still feel happy for that extra large imagination of mine...

its difficult to understand at times what we really want!!!

in the midst... of the smile we have
why cant we?
just lay our hands on the sky so wide...
its so simple my love,
to be in your arms,
no matter how far.... no matter how close,
we will live side by side!!!

but once again i see...
the colors in your eyes....
its a never ending sight...
for i wana be with you together... oh my love


Life listed...lifes list

There is always a dream we have...
there is a wish always to be fulfilled...
i cant recall the last time told myself these things neva happen...
i dnt believe at times its best to let go...
i neva say it cant...
let me try harder...
lets get it done...
its just a step away...
perceive it as i do...
and then its simple...COZ i can do!!!

the below mentioned are certain things that i wish to do in my years to come...some might even fade as i grow...i might even add a few in the events in future...but as of now...its the best for me...


Its a CraZeE list....form the crazee thee :)

  1. Learn horse riding and own a horse
  2. Ride my own horse to my office or a 5 star hotel...on the streets on mumbai
  3. Will own an animal farm
  4. Will have my own company
  5. Be a member of an Old age home and work towards adding value to those peoples life
  6. Want to be part of some meaning ful awareness programs
  7. Get a house big enough so that i can play hide and seek or skate with my kids in
  8. Meet Mohammad Ali or any of his family member or buy a large poster of his and put in my house
  9. Go to some of worlds best animal Safari
  10. Learn Some yoga and practice make it a part of my daily routine
  11. I genuinely will do something to help animals
  12. Ride an ostrich
  13. Go for a nice dinner with the man i love an underwater restaurant in Maldives
  14. Make a physical sport a part of my daily life
  15. Buy s sexy bicycle of BMW
  16. Wear a bikini on a beach
  17. I have this crazy wish of being the face of a cosmetic beauty product for skin in a tv ad
  18. Learn to speak Arabic language
  19. World tour with my mom dad and bro and sis...
  20. Play every possible sport under the sun at least once
  21. Do a tango dance or may be anyother dance (not indian ) with ma better half in front of at least 50 to 100 people and be appreciated :)
  22. Stand for an election may be for a MLA at the age of may be 35-40 when im financially strong (cant let it go easily as that was my first aspiration in life.. to be leader and represent people)

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

An evening with the Adorable

it’s like any other Sunday, started at 12.30, it’s the normal timing on a Sunday to get up. Every one’s busy getting ready to go to my aunt’s place for visiting my granny.

me and my younger bro were jus too lazy to go outta the house (being lazy is very usual for both but more for him as he is real fat and adorable :)

in any case all family members finally left and we both stayed back...

i did some work and then both played PS2 and still had loads of time left...it was 6.00 pm by now...

we both were dead hungry (that’s usual too for both but more for him as he is real fat...ahh u guessed it right !!! ^_^)

i told fujju (thats ma bros pet name) to go and call the pani puri wala bhaiya.. he ran and got him in 5 min...our mouths were watering by now :P looking him make those yummy delicious puris…

We ate countless plates of pani puri...

We still had loads of time in our hands to fill in hence we cud go for cycling...

Finally we left home...

he rode the bicycle till joggers (thats a big big deal...not for me but yes for him coz he is real fat...ahh u guessed it right again !!! ^_^)

finally he said that on our way home we will take the cycle in a rickshaw...trus me i laughed like never before.... woahohohoho...

he then sat at the amphi theatre at carters and i took the cycle :)

it’s real nice riding a bicycle…peaceful…and good for health…

neva the less I rode for like 3 hrs…

after every 15 min I use to come back to check on him…and he use to be sitting there like a lil cute teddy soft toy that wud’nt move unless u want him to…

eventually we went and picked up dinner…

back home…

I did all the cleaning and fujju helped me too J

He can be a sweet heart at times…

We ate and then after shower started watchin a movie…

By that time it was 12.30 am…

At times we all just see around for friends, ppl u can hang around with, list of parties in our town…we actually ignore our closest buddies…!!!

People who are close to us are often taken for granted…not becoz they stay wit us…but may be becoz somewhere deep inside our hearts we know they will always be with us no matter wat!

And so may be we dnt feel the need to spend much time with them

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Say with words

Im writing this on the spur of the moment. I myself dont know at times what my mind is thinking...
im very impulsive it does result in my favor at times...so confused like i need a court to take decisions for me...
i can go crazee and do stuff u jus dnt expect from me...the FUn is in being what you are and accepting what you have...
At times i just hate it... like things which are imperfect...
like my living place...i at times try and make myself believe that this is not MINE!!!
the people who i live with...i try and avoid their existence...and so on...
but a at times i feel why cant things and people and surroundings be like i have in my mind...
why cant the just be perfect...
a cleaN surrounding, literate people...blah blah...
but then was this i was made for...?
having a perfect life from the start,,,
may be this is where our imperfections come in the picture...
where we need to work...
i hate to confess all this...but then this is true...
if i wont accept them who will...wat eva they are, who ever they are...i am a part of it...i am a part of them...
but may be this day had to come...after alot of pondering,...as if it was a sudden days change ..like an angel came and whiepered in ma ears...The Fun is in being the way you are...and all these things made me who i was...regardless of wateva they are...
The feeling of loving your imperfections is way beyond content...
it washes all your regrets...
teaches you that it will improve if you love them...
i really dono if its making sense and all...
but this is the best way i can put it...
i love my imperfections...like at times i dono a meaning of a word and i wouldnt care i find out the meaning eveb if i needed to ask a hundred people...
sometimes people might say ur so dumb...but hey who the hell knows everything under the sun...
if loving your imperfections and changing them to your strengths is being dumb...then the best thing i do is smile...and it doesnt matter to me...coz i knw i jus love them and they love me,,,

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Strange emotions

a crowded train, sounds so normal to anyone of us, most of the times im in my own wonderland, thinking of god knows what, dreaming like im never gona sleep, silly me...but thats wat makes me so crazee
...the other day was in the train as usual lissnin to music and dancing to the tunes like no ones watchin (not dancing literally jus a lil tap of the foot here and there) moving towards churchgate...
slowly train started getin empty...
an old lady of about 65 age came in with two so big bags...i started wondering where the hell she cuming from...she came and sat exactly in the seat facing towards me...nevatheless ma still in the world of my own still not so ignorant towards her...we exchanged smiles and i thot that wud be it...
suddenly after sitting on the seat she opened her one bag like she gona remove a pistol but to ma surprise there were Khakraas in it..the full bag was filled with it...i had a lil smirk on ma face...
and then she slowly got up and started chanting "Khakraa lelo khakraa lelo"...
that smirk went off like i never smiled or smirled....
then after she finished a round of those few ladies sitting in the same compartment she came back to her seat and took a seat. Then she removed a piece of paper torn like having a hole in it and requested me to read since it was in english...i started readin it out it was some kind of an invoice a bill...while i was readin she asked wats the bill date i said its somewher is 2003...she said then i dnt think its important and she tore it and threw...
next she said i sell khakraa for my living i too told her about my profession...
then she smiled and said that "beti abhi tum shaadi karlo"..i gave her a smile and said yes i will but may be after being independent...
and then she started saying about the generation today...her own sons...they dnt look after her...her daughter in laws...
it was so sad...anybody would feel pity for her...
but i was just taken aback by what she added on later... "mujhe kisi ka ehsaan nahi chaaiye...apna kamati hoon aur khati hoon" whoa...
i jus wished i cud do something...but then i think she managed it real well...
talkin to her time flew by...my station had come...i wanted to talk to her for some more time...but then i had to leave...
at the end i jus said "chalo maji main chalti hoon"
i dono if ill meet her ever again but yes ill always remember this short moment of my life always...

Strange emotions

a crowded train, sounds so normal to anyone of us

Wondeful Dawn

Every time i walk along...
there's something that holds me back.
I hear the breeze sing the song for me...
Theres an immortal music that binds the world...
We walk naked feet on the waters of life...
Still every time time i see a child...
it tells me how happy we can be.
theres alot to explore in the world apart from sadness...
happiness is all around us...
why we ignorant to this height...
every petal says says dreams do come true...
coz the lord himself says that "i love you"
Every time i walk along...
there's something that holds me back.
I hear the breeze sing the song for me...
Theres an immortal music that binds the world...
We walk naked feet on the waters of life...
Still everytime time i see a child...
it tells me how happy we can be.
theres alot to explore in the world apart from sadness...
happiness is all around us...
why we ignorant to this height...
that is some one smiles at us...
we see suspicion in it
.....