Do BE4 Die

everyday i think of so many things... like i wana do this and tha...

well i really wana conquer certain things before i grow really old...
atleast i wana be able to talk to my grandchildren about some exciting stuff i did when i was young... yea i know age is just a number for most... but then again nature has its way... and i respect it..

i had sometime back made a list of things i need to do, rather i want... but i misplaced it...its a sad thing.. i miss it now..

but never too late to start off!

There is always a dream we have...
there is a wish always to be fulfilled...
i cant recall the last time told myself these things neva happen...
i dnt believe at times its best to let go...
i neva say it cant...
let me try harder...
lets get it done...
its just a step away...
perceive it as i do...
and then its simple...COZ i can do!!!
the below mentioned are certain things that i wish to do in my years to come...some might even fade as i grow...i might even add a few in the events in future...but as of now...its the best for me...


Its a decent.. ok... may be a nice... list....form the crazee thee :)

1. I donot wish to make millions.What i wish is to make a difference to millions. Everything around us is designed. Still daily life for masses is very complicated. I wish to make atleast one simple product that makes a big differnce to the daily lives or probably an innovation that im known for an awarded for.
2. Learn horse riding and own a horse
3. Learn to make mock tails and yummy crushes
4. Ride horse on the streets on mumbai
5. Own an animal farm
6. Have my own company.. design or agriculture..
7. Be a member of an Old age home and work towards adding value to those peoples life
8. Want to be part of some meaningful awareness programs
9. Get a house big enough so that i can play hide and seek or skate with my kids in
10. Meet Mohammad Ali or any of his family member or buy a large poster of his and put in my house
11. Go to some of worlds best animal Safari
12. Learn Some yoga and practice make it a part of my daily routine
13. I genuinely will do something to help animals
14. Ride an ostrich
15. Go for a nice dinner with the man i love in an underwater restaurant in Maldives.. well as long as its underwater
16. Make a physical sport a part of my daily life
17. Buy s sexy bicycle of BMW
18. I have this crazy wish of being the face of a cosmetic beauty product for skin in a tv ad
19. Learn to speak Arabic language
20. Play every possible sport under the sun at least once
21. Do a tango dance or may be anyother dance (not indian ) with a man i like better half in front of at least 50 to 100 people and be appreciated :)
22. Stand for an election may be for a MLA at the age of may be 35-40 when im financially strong (cant let it go easily as that was my first aspiration in life.. to be leader and represent people)
23. Be on a vacation continuously for 2months... no work means no work!
24. Punch a guy in his face for a wrong doing. and ye he must bleed in that punch :P
25. Learn Skating 

im not done yet... will write more :)

She was unborn...

I am different!
They say im not like them!
May be i was never meant to be!

The difference was created the moment i was born...
The fight began the time i came here... and i was a warrior...who simply had to survive!
For what? that was never important...may be never would be!

I love you mother...my heaven is under your feet.
I can do anything to protect you, to live with you, to take your blessings.
Be with me, guide me, help me.

I need you!

I took the pain to bring you here...to show you this and to show you that...
to take you here and to take you there!

We will see the world, i will see you grow.
I can make you rice and you can see the show.

Lets get home.
We have to go.
You have school and i have more work to do.
Hold my hand and we shall walk...
tomorrow i will come to buy you some sweets and corns.

I have started dreaming your future...
your kids, your wife.
A small family...
We shall be together now and ever.

I am going to be born again...
im happy...
But you dont want me...

You will kill me!
I can spare you the terror!
I will never take birth!
I Want a life to love and live!
I say... I dont want to be born!

Im killed everyday...
Its not your worth to have me born...

I know one day i will be yearned...

I dont need to be with you...i am a shining star!


(I know there are women who have touched the sky... i am simply talking about majority here and the ground reality for many females! Hope its taken positively)

An Extra pinch of salt

its like i have millions of smiles waiting to shine...

....

The mind speaks

Thats a tear!

I walk i stop,.....
I look i think,.....
i smile i wonder,....
i see the way its been done,.....
i feel the warmth of your arms,....
i want a jerk to shake my life,....
i know a person loving me as a mother to a child,....
its all bout me... but i have given a part of my life to the one living within me !!!


At times i can go through a million emotions in a second...
its a blessing i feel... but then whats so diff in all these feelings?
walking on the streets i see here and there like i want to register every detail of the surrounding and never forget it... like i want to remember every face....Phew thats just so impossible

i see people form my past... like i have been with them before...
i wish to go and say a hi! but u see something stops me from it... i wonder is it just me or do most people face the same emotion as i do?
i smile seeing the street kids play... i fly with the plane going some where.... its a feeling of winning... do they really worry about their future? do they have a plan for tomorrow?

i walk a lane every day seeing an old man sell handkerchiefs... why does he need to do this... he can also be like the other old people who beg... want people to pity them... what makes him WORK in the hot sun...??? why is he different from others?

i see a construction worker with his little 1year old daughter in his arms... standing at a near by chai dukaan to grab a sip or two of tea... playing with that little one... i feel so content... may be in our ambitions, in our greed, in our vision, in MY life... i have forgotten that its a pleasure to be part of a genuine happiness... with no conditions, with no do's and dont's, with no limitations...

thats one sight i could have spent my whole life watching...

Bloom for life

nothing in the world can stop the future,

i was destined to be born,
and so were you,
let me bloom for now... and so shall you,
let me live it best till i have my breaths assigned,
be my friend and love me,
for tomorrow is uncertain,
life is beautiful now... let it be so

- Shaina

Seeking the STAR

Theres a little star i fell for,
a little shiny a little bright.
Days passed by,
waiting for it to rise.
I love it... and its hiding from me,
i don't understand why?
A little naughty a little wise,
thats the star in the sky i like.
We love, we hate, we argue, we quarrel,
We do all possible to make a our relation bloom.
A moment so weak,
A moment so tender,
A moment we all wish could last forever!
Its that part of our lives wished we could freeze,
Its that innocence we always want to relive.
I believe the star is still shining with me,
Its silly to say,
but then its true,
Emotions flow in every work we do!!!

-Shaina